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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #20 on: May 14, 2012, 07:04:49 pm »
Somehow, Jaxon had known that Toori would be ticklish, at least a bit, and he was satisfied to discover how right he was. Toori immediately burst into laughter, and Jaxon had to, too. Seeing the blond so open and happy, giggling and squirming underneath him... Jaxon felt incredibly, piercingly happy just to watch him. He felt it in the filling of his heart, the knot of his stomach. It was unlike anything he'd felt with anyone else, any other friend, any other person, and while it unnerved him in some way, he couldn't even think to let go of the feeling. Not when Toori was fisting his shirt and giggling.

He continued tickling Toori until they were both breathless from laughing, then, reluctantly ceased in doing so.. His hands came to a stop, palms flat against Toori's ribs which were rising and falling with every desperate breath. Jaxon found himself leaning forward but stopped himself, instead looking at Toori in the silence, only their breathing audible. "You're doing pretty bad at this.. I'm still on your bed," Jaxon said quietly with a smile- his voice almost a whisper. They were close enough that it didn't matter.
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chelle

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #21 on: May 14, 2012, 07:22:52 pm »
As Jaxon's hands slowed and then stopped on Toori's ribs, his palms pressed half-into Toori's skin where his shirt had ridden up in the assault, Toori stopped laughing and concentrated on getting his breath back. He was panting, his eyes shining with the exertion, and he could only stare up at Jaxon, surrendering to his whims.

There was a moment where Jaxon leaned forward a little, something deep and intent in his eyes, and it made something flare up in Toori that felt almost like panic. Suddenly Toori's heart rate seemed to speed up instead of slowing down, blood roaring in his ears while Jaxon stared down at him from too close. Toori's flush darkened in the brief seconds before Jaxon spoke, his voice low and devilish, and from this close Toori could see the hint of a pointed tooth in his smirk. Something about that made a shiver run down Toori's spine, the shiver with a stab of real panic following right on its tail.

Toori's fingers loosened in Jaxon's shirt a fraction and then tightened, pushing with renewed vigor as the smile fell off of Toori's face.

"Get off me," Toori said, real panic edging into his voice. He felt the anxiety like a punch to the gut; he didn't know what this was but it was scary, with Jaxon leaning over him and smirking like he was a fairy tale monster, about to devour Toori whole. Toori wondered deliriously if he was going to have a panic attack, right here, Jaxon's knees pressed into his hips and Jaxon's palms searing into his skin. "Get off me."
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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #22 on: May 14, 2012, 07:41:24 pm »
As per usual, Toori's actions and reactions threw Jaxon for a complete and utter loop. He hadn't been expecting the blond's expression to fall so suddenly and then to tighten in a mixture of discomfort and almost.. Anger? Or at least, that was what Jaxon mistook it for initially. He couldn't make heads or tails of what was going on before Toori snapped, telling him to get off. Jaxon knew that it wasn't a joke anymore, and he immediately backed off, standing and putting his hands up almost defensively.

Standing there looking at a completely different Toori, Jaxon had no idea what he'd done to earn that sort of reaction. He couldn't help but to feel offended in his confusion and surprise.  Did Toori think he was coming onto him and that was why he was angry? The thoughts that were overflowing his head were unbearable and he couldn't deal with them-- They were calling on his deepest feelings towards Toori.

Jaxon locked up immediately, turning away from his emotions at the mere sight of them. His expression went blank as he began to detach. "I'll leave you alone," he said icily, turning and exiting the room with little idea or care as to where he was heading.
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chelle

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #23 on: May 14, 2012, 08:13:13 pm »
When Jaxon backed off Toori breathed a deep sigh of relief, the panic pulling back a little as Jaxon did the same. It gave him room to breath, to catch control of himself before the panic swallowed him whole. By the time Toori looked at Jaxon again, considerable calmer than he had been moments ago, it was to an eerily blank expression. The panic flared up again, but this was a different kind of panic, sudden and confused and hating that empty expression on Jaxon's face.

Toori heard Jaxon's words like they were another language, from a person Toori had never met, and they took too long to register as communication.

"Jaxon!" Toori called, but he was already gone.

Toori stared at the door for a while, confused and panicked and wondering if Jaxon was ever going to talk to him again. He couldn't imagine what Jaxon had thought-- one second they were laughing and joking, and then Toori had ruined it. Toori wasn't even sure what had happened in his own head, so he couldn't very well imagine what someone else had interpreted it as.

Objectively, he could understand it. Toori had little experience with being close to someone physically, even in the most innocent ways, and his inexperience would make it logical that when presented with an unfamiliar situation he would panic. Really, though, Toori couldn't rationalize the feeling that had rocketed down his spine just before the panic had set in. Jaxon had certainly touched him before, though perhaps not so much, but Jaxon's touch had never before lit anything close to panic inside Toori.

For a long time he lay back on his bed, just where Jax had left him, and tried to puzzle out his own feelings. He wasn't really any closer to a conclusion but he had decided that whatever had happened had been Toori's fault, and when (if) Jaxon returned, Toori would apologize.

It was somewhere to start, at least.
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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #24 on: May 17, 2012, 12:46:05 pm »
Outside on the bustling streets of Tynova, Jaxon began to regret his decision to leave. He felt much more uncomfortable, more unwanted on the streets than around Toori. It wouldn't have bothered him before, but he was already on edge and everything felt unbearable.. The people of Edanith were not the most accepting or polite, and he was quickly frustrated with the wary glances or the thoughtless shoves as he made his way around the city. It was that time of day; everyone was in a constant, unceasing rush, and he felt left out- He had nowhere to go or be, and he knew no one personally, except Toori. In spite of that, he spent a long time simply walking aimlessly, trying to keep his emotions and thoughts away.

When he finally landed himself in a quieter section of the city, Jaxon relaxed and stopped walking, resting on a secluded bench. Sitting alone, he couldn't help but to think of what had happened again. He felt partly apologetic, partly upset, and mostly confused. He'd long since established that Toori was not like other people- not simple, not boring, not an open book. And that had pleased him initially. He'd liked when Toori didn't back down from him, played along and yet showed when he was truly angry, got upset, was passionate.. But now that Jaxon couldn't understand Toori and thought he'd done something wrong, it was immensely frustrating.

Nonetheless he wasn't going to leave. What he'd liked about Toori and their friendship still stood. Jaxon didn't know if he had it in him to fix it, to discuss, but he could pretend nothing had happened.

When he returned to Toori's, more than two hours had passed. The door, to his surprise, was open, so he assumed Toori had been awaiting his return and was probably around. He closed the door behind him, leaning against it. "Toori?" he called out.
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chelle

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #25 on: May 20, 2012, 12:53:18 am »
By the time Jaxon came back Toori had left his room and was busy fixing lunch, puttering around the kitchen mostly just as something to occupy his hands. After laying on his bed for a long time, Toori had realized with a jolt that perhaps Jaxon hadn't meant to return at all. Then he'd seen Jaxon's packs just where he'd left them and that was slightly comforting; even if Jax did want to leave he wouldn't do so without his guns. That would at least give Toori enough time to apologize, even if Jaxon only wanted to be in the house long enough to take his bags and leave. Just to be sure, Toori had checked that day's departing ships, and no ships were bound for Cancer and taking passengers until late that night. And, he decided firmly, if Jaxon was gone more than a couple of hours he would go out and find him.

Toori's nerves were mostly soothed by this plan and information, but only mostly, so he moved to his desk. He couldn't concentrate enough to work, though, he kept staring out the window and trying to catch a glimpse of someone with horns on the street down below. In the end he left his tools where they lie (his desk even more of a mess now than it had been) and he decided it was time for lunch.

When he heard Jaxon's unmistakable voice his heart stuttered in his chest and he jumped, very nearly burning his hand on the stove. In a moment Toori was out of the kitchen and in the main hall, staring at Jaxon, who was casually leaning back against the door. Toori couldn't believe Jaxon could look so relaxed when they had had something approaching their first real fight, and was so distracted by this thought that he forgot to speak.

"Uh," he said, working a wooden spoon between his hands and hoping he didn't seem as anxious as he felt, "Hey."
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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #26 on: May 20, 2012, 08:18:57 am »
Jaxon didn't know what he was expecting, but this wasn't it. When Toori came in the room and their eyes met, he felt all his frustration and distress just fall away as though it was worthless and unimportant. And it was. It must have been, because no matter what Jaxon wanted to be around Toori, and wanted to mean something to him. This was the first relationship (which he could remember) in his life which he felt so strongly about another person, in a different way than his gang and friends on Cancer. This was something he'd pursued on his own, and he'd put forth a different foot than he did with anyone else- With Toori, Jaxon was just himself.

It all occurred to him in a sudden surge of thoughts that left him feeling raw and open-- too open. Jaxon pushed it away, realizing Toori had greeted him, and began to cross the room. He stopped before getting too close to Toori, almost cautious. He could sense Toori's anxiety and he knew that he didn't want things to be like this- awkward and tense with unsaid words. Though he had planned the exact opposite, Jax found himself apologizing. "I'm sorry," he said suddenly.
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chelle

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #27 on: May 20, 2012, 12:51:59 pm »
The most incredible look came over Jaxon's face for a moment, some strange mix of relief and awe that Toori couldn't quite rationalize, but in a moment it was wiped clean and Toori wondered if he'd imagined it. Then in another moment Jaxon was walking forward, moving towards Toori but stopping just short of his personal space. There was something immensely comforting about that; though Toori was sure it was just wariness from what had happened earlier, he liked Jaxon right there. Not so close that it made Toori anxious, but he could reach out and touch Jaxon if he wanted to.

When Jax apologized Toori couldn't help it, his eyes went wide. He hadn't been expecting an apology from Jaxon, and he hadn't realized until receiving one how much it meant. Even if Jaxon wasn't particularly at fault in this scenario, it meant that he cared enough to be sorry--if not for any wrongdoing on his part, sorry that the whole thing had happened at all, sorry that Toori had been upset. It was-- a bit overwhelming.

Feeling embarrassingly close to hysterics, Toori swallowed thickly and nodded.

"I'm sorry too," he started, managing to keep his voice level, at least until he continued, "It was my fault, I shouldn't have-- I mean, I'm just, I'm not used to anyone being that close and I just-- I don't know why, I just got-- I freaked out," Toori said in a rush, looking down at the spoon in his hands, "I'm sorry."
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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #28 on: May 20, 2012, 01:11:10 pm »
The look on Toori's face spelled trouble, Jaxon thought almost anxiously, expecting the younger boy to burst out into hysterics or something. Thankfully nothing of the sort happened, and he was relieved because he knew that he wouldn't be able to deal with tears. He had always been weak for any show of sadness, and on Toori's part especially. Instead, he received a heartfelt apology, and a minced explanation. Jaxon didn't possess many of the apprehensions Toori had towards other people and intimacy, so it was hard- almost impossible- for him to understand it. Yet, he did feel sorry. That seemed to be enough, even if he couldn't understand why his being close had freaked Toori out.

"Okay, me too," he said with an earnest smile, letting go of his frustration about the 'fight' quite easily. In the silent pause, Jaxon suddenly noticed the wooden spoon, and tilted his head to the side questioningly. "What, were you cooking or something? That sounds like a disaster waiting to happen," Jax teased, snatching the spoon from Toori and wandering off into the kitchen as though nothing had happened. That was probably best, for both of them.
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chelle

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #29 on: May 20, 2012, 01:21:07 pm »
Jax snatched the spoon from Toori and walked off. For a moment Toori stared after him, wondering if he should accept the offered effort to move on as if nothing had happened, or force Jax to keep talking. Part of Toori wanted to say more--explain better, maybe, ask why Jax had run off instead of asking what was wrong--but a bigger part of him just wanted to enjoy these two days, and he knew there were few things Jaxon liked less than talking about feelings. Toori himself wasn't too fond of talking about feelings, so he followed Jax into the kitchen.

"Hey! I'm a great cook!" He took the spoon back from Jax, glaring at him before turning back to the stove. And this was good, this was easy, much easier than confusing feelings and anxiety. Toori stirred a pot on the stove, where he was making a simple stew. It was one of his grandfather's favorites.
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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #30 on: May 20, 2012, 01:30:12 pm »
Jaxon playfully ignored Toori's claim to being good at cooking, finding himself flourishing rather than withering under the glare that was shot his way. It was much easier to joke around this way than to be sincere, the way they'd been earlier which had just led to fights and apologies. Relieved to have things back to normal, he stood quietly close by, watching Toori stir the soup with interest. Jax himself knew nearly nothing about cooking, and his diet consisted primarily of whatever he could scrounge up at home or on board a ship, and alcohol. It was hardly healthy or interesting and required no cooking.

"What are you making?" he asked, taking a step closer and peering into the pot. Without any regard to the fact he would probably get hit for doing so, he dipped his finger in the stew and lapped at it. His eyes widened immediately. "This is actually really good!" he exclaimed, completely over enthusiastic at the prospect of home cooking. Jax didn't get much of that. Clearly.
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chelle

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #31 on: May 20, 2012, 01:53:25 pm »
Toori smacked Jaxon's hand when he stuck his finger in the pot, though too late to actually stop him. Toori eyed Jaxon warily, knowing the simple stew wasn't really worth that much excitement.

"Don't sound so surprised," he said primly, moving to add some herbs he'd chopped earlier, "It's just a vegetable stew. It's really easy to make." Despite Toori's sarcasm and deflection, he was secretly pleased that Jaxon liked it. Honestly, he had made it hoping Jaxon would be back to taste it. It was one of the best dishes that Toori knew how to make. He'd never had a real flair for cooking, but when he'd started taking care of his grandfather he realized that in some ways cooking was exactly like building something. You fix up different parts--or ingredients--and make them fit together in a way that works. Toori could understand that. He could also follow a recipe. He didn't consider himself a chef by any stretch of the imagination, but he could feed himself and his grandfather well enough.
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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #32 on: May 20, 2012, 02:02:12 pm »
Jaxon frowned at Toori's words, pulling a cutesy pout. "Even if it is easy to make, I never have home cooking," he explained in a jokingly mopey voice. Also, he was hungry as hell. He stepped back and leaned against a counter, keeping his gaze fixed on Toori. He hadn't anticipated that Toori would be the type to cook, or be good at it, but then, his lifestyle didn't really leave him with any choice, did it? Jaxon tried to imagine what it would be like to be in Toori's position, having to take care of everything, be responsible for someone else.. He knew that he was too immature to handle something like that, which only made him more impressed by the other. And his cooking skills.

"Can you teach me?" Jaxon asked with a soft smile. He liked to see Toori doing things he was good at, like fixing and building things, and he liked to see Toori proud of himself- wanted to tell him that he was good at everything if it would just make him happy. He was almost ashamed at the sudden burst of affection, and it made him bite down on his lip doubtfully.
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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #33 on: May 20, 2012, 02:34:01 pm »
When Jaxon asked to be taught Toori peered over at him, wondering if Jax was making fun of him. It wasn't that he doubted Jaxon's sincerity, really, he just couldn't see why Jax would have any interest in cooking. After a moment of contemplation and frowning at Jax, he nodded.

"Sure, like I said, it's really easy," he said, taking Jaxon through the process he had already done, explaining ingredients and techniques along the way.

"And now it's almost done, we just have to add the final seasonings," Toori said, opening up a cupboard and taking out a few small bottles, handing one filled with a dark gray powder to Jaxon, "Here, you try."
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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #34 on: May 20, 2012, 02:43:03 pm »
Jaxon listened to Toori explain how to make the stew, sort-of pleased just to hear the other's voice and even a little bit interested in the cooking. It occurred to him somewhere halfway through that it didn't really matter what they were doing exactly, or what they were discussing, but Jaxon was just content. He felt content.

Naturally, he was a little distracted by his own thoughts, so when Toori handed him some seasoning and told him to 'try', Jax blinked and paused. "Okay," he agreed, taking the bottle and opening it. He tilted it over the pot and began shaking it vigorously, wondering how long he was supposed to do this for. Maybe the whole thing had to go in.
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chelle

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #35 on: May 20, 2012, 02:58:12 pm »
Toori watched Jax as he opened the bottle and tilted it over the pot, prepared to give instruction if Jax was unsure, but then Jaxon started shaking the bottle. Toori would have laughed if Jaxon wasn't ruining his stew, by the look of intense concentration on Jax's face. As it was, Jax was ruining Toori's stew, so he yelled "no!" and threw his arm out to knock the bottle away from the stew. Unfortunately, Toori was a little too enthusiastic with his movements, and in knocking the bottle away from the stew he knocked it clear out of Jaxon's hand, and watched in terror as is sailed into Jaxon's face. The cap popped off as it came in contact with Jaxon's cheek, dumping the contents of the little bottle down the side of Jax's face as it dropped down to his shoulder and then rolled across the floor.

Toori stared, one arm still outstretched as if protecting the stew, but his eyes were locked on Jaxon as he raised his other hand to cover his mouth. After a silent, tense moment Toori started to snort behind his hand, attempting to control his laughter but ultimately failing and bursting into laughter. The spice was streaked over the right side of Jaxon's face and in his hair and on his shirt, and for whatever reason it was one of the funniest things Toori had ever seen.
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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #36 on: May 20, 2012, 03:10:02 pm »
In all his intense concentration, Jaxon couldn't fathom that he was doing anything wrong as he vigorously shook out the contents of the bottle into the stew. Then, suddenly, Toori yelled at him and threw his arm out, causing the bottle to fly out and hit his face. Jaxon closed his eyes immediately as seasoning covered his hair and face and shoulder, the bottle rolling to the floor. He slowly opened his eyes again, squinting at Toori. Apparently, he had done something very wrong, he thought, looking back as Toori stared at him with one arm outstretched to protect the stew.

The whole thing was a little ridiculous, but Jaxon was too shocked to even say anything.. At least until Toori burst out laughing. He stared incredulously before he, too, began laughing. In doing so, some of the seasoning drifted near his nose and Jaxon began sneezing, too, which really only made the whole thing funnier. He wiped the seasoning off, laughing and trying to stop sneezing, though that was pretty much impossible at this point.
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chelle

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #37 on: May 20, 2012, 03:20:36 pm »
When Jax started to sneeze, Toori lost whatever semblance of self-control he'd had, doubling over as he laughed. Toori straightened after a moment, still laughing helplessly but feeling responsible enough to try to help. He reached up, helping to brush the spice out of Jaxon's hair, running his fingers through it before moving to brush off his shoulder.

"God, I'm sorry," Toori said, still breathless from laughter, "You were putting in too much." Saying this only reminded Toori of how funny the whole thing had been and he started laughing again, leaning heavily on the counter to stay upright while he giggled.
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Jenny

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #38 on: May 20, 2012, 03:28:11 pm »
Having brushed most of the seasoning off his face, Jaxon finally quit sneezing but wasn't quite done laughing. He stopped trying to clean himself up and just laughed openly with Toori at the sheer ridiculousness of the moment. The laughter died into breathless chuckles as Toori approached him, running his fingers through his hair to get the seasoning out. Jaxon immediately fixed his eyes on Toori's face and tensed. He was so close, and Jaxon felt that same urge as before come over him. Quickly, he pushed that feeling away, pretending that Toori's proximity did nothing to him, though it did.

When Toori spoke again, Jaxon couldn't help but snort a laugh. Seeing Toori giggling and supporting himself against the counter, Jaxon was tempted to join in but instead he grinned, just enjoying the sight as he shook his head. He bent down to pick up the empty bottle, placing it upright on the table. "You should have told me before," he whined, though he couldn't help but laugh.
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chelle

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Re: Our conversations are like minefields [Toori]
« Reply #39 on: May 20, 2012, 03:42:22 pm »
Toori took a few deep breaths, his laughter gradually coming to a stop. He wiped the tears that had gathered from his cheeks, grinning unreservedly at Jaxon.

"Where's the fun in that?" Toori asked, grinning brightly at Jax for another moment before turning back to the stove. He added the rest of the spices, this time without offering any to Jax. Before declaring the stew done he raised the spoon to his mouth, sipping the soup.

"Yum," he said, nodding to himself, "That's it! All done." He moved over to a cupboard, opening it and pulling down three bowls, "Do you think you can handle serving it?" he asked, smirking at Jax.
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