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Wanderers and Independents / Defiant Wish of the Silent Billows Kin
« on: May 07, 2022, 12:20:08 pm »
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Name Defiant Wish of the Silent Billows Kin
Alias
Age
Gender Female
Species Kaleïko
Ethnicity Kaleïko
Height 6’4”
Occupation Medic
Residence The Loveless

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Physical Description

Kaleïkos earned the species nickname Katkin for their similarities in initial appearance to anthropomorphized cats. They are however not at all related to cats despite the similarities. Their entire bodies are lightly furred with longer fur growth around the jawline and elbows. Subtle fur patterns are sex-specific. They have large, tufted cat ears and very strong, sleek, prehensile tails. Both hands and feet have a nasty set of retractable claws. Their legs are digitigrade, making them incredibly fast but also easier to topple over if they lose their balance. Their hands however are more human-like although with slightly elongated digits.

One of their most striking differences is their jaw. Kaleïkos possess independently moving upper and lower jaws. Like a shark they are therefore able to extend their jaws outward from their face in order to latch onto prey and drag it back into their mouth. This is aided by a row of incredibly sharp teeth with the ability to be regularly replaced over time.

Defiant Wish has the classic lithe form and broad, flat, barrel chest of her people, even though she is rather short for a female. Her coloring is a rich tawny brown with very subtle darker brown banding best visible in the right lighting. She has deep blue eyes capable of night vision (and in fact glow red when a light is shone on them in the dark) and a long thin nose that has a slight upturn at the tip. Defiant Wish also has a soft, medium, brown bob haircut she is working on growing out longer.

Her tail is like those of the males of her species in that they are not shaggy but the fur does hide a very formative natural weapon. The tip beneath the fur has a lethal barbed, bony point. The shape of this barb is unique to each Kaleïko Kin. Defiant Wish’s particular one is corkscrew shaped with serrated edges so that it may be used both to bludgeon as well as to stab.

Personality
  • Hellcat: She has had to fight for everything to survive in life from the moment she was born. Defiant Wish is fiercely protective of what is hers or what she feels should/can be hers. She does not back down to a challenge she feels she can win and she is far stronger than she looks. When it comes to a fight, Defiant Wish is not stopping until one of you is dead and she is not ready for her brand new freedom to end so soon.
  • Curiosity Killed the Cat: Defiant Wish is incredibly interested in learning new things and exploring the world around her. Everything is a new and confusing adventure and experience to be explored to its fullest. This sometimes has unfortunate consequences for her, but then the burnt hand teaches best.
  • Scaredy-Cat: She is easily spooked by things she doesn’t expect. Despite her excellent hearing and sense of smell, not everything behaves accordingly. Getting the jump on her definitely results in an interesting reaction followed by deep agitation and embarrassment. Probably best to pretend you didn’t notice.
  • Copycat: While not readily well-versed in human culture and society, Defiant Wish is a quick study and is known to imitate those around her until she figures out what is and isn’t acceptable in order to fit in. Sometimes this does get her into trouble though as either it is viewed as mocking someone or someone else has given her wrong information as a joke.

Things
  • Seemingly innocently uses cat puns. It is hard to say whether this is intentional or a result of her struggles with human pronunciations. Just give her a meowment, she’ll get there eventually.
  • Despite it being a culturally inappropriate and highly frowned upon thing to do, Defiant Wish possesses the ability to purr, bark-meow, and scream-meow much like the sounds heard by Earth’s mountain lions. It is possible to spook her into making one of these sounds or severely agitate her to the point where she purrs. Both are highly unrecommended for the safety and wellbeing of the offender.
  • Favorite food: kidneys and raw heart. She will not disclose of what animal.
  • HATES being touched without even being asked her permission. Hates how people just want to grab her tail, or pet her fur, or touch her ears. Has been known to bite the hand that does the touching on occasion.
  • The number of humans she has consumed is low….but not none.
  • Finds real cats actually quite disturbing and is not a fan.

Magic/Abilities

Telepath: All Kaleïko regardless of gender possess the ability to communicate telepathically. They, as a people, believe that verbal vocalizations are primal and beneath them. Those who resort to vocalizations over civilized communication are looked down upon with varying degrees of disgust and as inferior species. Communication predominantly is expressed via complex imagery and conceptualization over strings of sentences and words. Kaleïko feel only children resort to such basic communication.

Warrior: Incredibly unheard of and downright rare for female Kaleïkos, Defiant Wish is a consummate warrior and huntress. She learned all the skills of her male counterparts when it comes to the more primal tasks of the lesser gender. She is an excellent tracker, hunter, and fighter, capable of ambushing and taking down prey three times her size.

Healer: More common for those of her gender, Defiant Wish was educated in the ways of medicine. Her methods, while likely strange to humans, are well researched and documented among her people and the execution is at least somewhat applicable to these odd furless beings. She’s still getting the hang of it but, it turns out not everything is a 1:1 comparison. At last no one’s died because of her yet? Maybe?

Relationships

Disowned by family

History

Kicked off her home planet station, Defiant Wish doesn’t really like talking about her past much. When asked, she does her best to avoid answering much of anything but will become anxious and then agitated if questioning persists. Some secrets are better off left untold.

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Teinar Characters / Arcadia
« on: March 06, 2022, 08:04:22 pm »
    TW: Slurs, Implied torture, abuse, and SA

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    Name Arcadia
    Alias Kady
    Age Unknown
    DOB Unknown
    Gender Agender
    Species Humanoid
    Ethnicity Unknown
    Height Prefers 5’9”-6’2”
    Occupation Tinkerer
    Residence Ghoul’s Hideout

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    Physical Description

    Their preferred form is that of a tall, slender androgynous figure with dark, reddish-brown skin and long, thick, nearly knee length, curly black hair. In this form they have no facial hair but a plethora of freckles that dot their nose and cheeks. Their eyes are a pale, pale green set in a wide, doe-eyed shape. Their nose is a little squashed and button shaped above full, pouty lips.

    Their chest is flat and limbs thin and frail looking. A strong breeze would seem enough to knock them over with how delicate they appear. Arcadia tends to wear what is available as far as clothes go in the wastes but would prefer neutral colored items and to wear layered items that remain easy to move in. Form-fitting clothing isn’t as much of an issue as keeping as much of themself covered as possible is.

    Beneath their clothes though regardless of form are countless scars. All viable veins for needle insertion have been mutilated and show the scars of excessive usage and placement to the point of thick scarring. Their back and chest are littered with various scars. Some areas are so scarred it is hard to tell the age of all of the overlapping healed wounds. The skin in this area such as over their heart and on their inner thighs is incredibly sensitive to touch. There is also a large, pebbled acid burn scar across their torso although it is fading as are burn marks on their legs.

    Additionally they also have a variety of tattoos in various states of fading. Crude, black handprints decorate their pecs, waist, the backs of their hips, just below the inside of their knees, the upper inside of their thighs, around their ankles, and finally on their shoulders by their neck as if someone was placing hands on their shoulders from behind them. They also have three, black arrow tattoos: one on their stomach pointing down to between their legs, one on their low back also pointing down towards their backside, and a final one between their pecs pointing up to their throat. This last one is nearly indiscernible now from the excessive scarring overtop of it. There is also text around the base of each of the arrows but it is now impossible to read from other scar layers. Their last tattoo runs the length of their spine in the largest possible blocky, black letters spelling out ‘SLAG.’

    Personality
    • Mouse: Arcadia is bashful and reserved. They tend to fade into the background of things easily and like to avoid large, boisterous gatherings. “Make no waves and they won’t one day drown you,” is their life philosophy. They ask for no more than what they need and never for what they want if it is something they can get by without.
    • Crow: They are a particularly intelligent, resourceful, and curious sort. Arcadia is uneducated but a quick learner and eager to experiment and try new things. They have a great love of puzzles and can easily get lost in thought spending hours trying to repair things or build new tools.
    • Hyena: Arcadia loves a good laugh. Once comfortable, they can be very playful. A good prank is always ruined by their telltale giggle fits. Their laughter is always good-natured and innocent though. While they do tend to encourage Red’s antics, being the brain behind his mischief, they do not condone cruel tricks and play. Arcadia does enjoy mimicking others though either in appearance or voice or seeing how long it takes them to notice them changing things about their person.
    • Dog: They are loyal to a fault if someone has earned it. Arcadia is eager to please and will go to the ends of the earth and bend over backwards to do something for someone if asked. Because of this their naivety has also gotten them into trouble. They do have boundaries however, and won’t do most things that would maliciously put them in harm’s way but they would be willing to sacrifice themself to help someone they cared about.

    Things
    • Is ALWAYS cold both in general and to the touch. Is a majestic burrito blanket roller.
    • Does not curse, ever….will go out of their way to try and find a word to replace the vulgarity of a foul, inappropriate word
    • Has a thing for counting things (especially steps)
    • Mildly germaphobic in odd ways that don’t always make sense for what will and won’t trigger it.
    • Does not like their hair being touched and can become quite hostile when this boundary is disrespected.
    • Really handy and resourceful with mechanical and technological repairs despite never learning.
    • Best damn marksman of the Ghouls regardless of distance or weather conditions.

    Magic/Abilities

    • Shapeshifter: Arcadia naturally has the capability of shapeshifting into any human or animal. While they prefer to remain in their own form, they will do whatever it takes to ensure their survival. They can mimic anyone they have met. The more time they’ve spent in someone’s presence and more they see of them, the more accurate the replication is.

      They can however shapeshift into an appearance of their own creation so long as they have an understanding of a realistic “template base” of the species. For example, they could appear as any randomly generated appearance of a human that they want because they understand what a human should look like. They could not however do the same for a species such as a Kulshedra without having ever encountered one and learned how they move and look.

      The process itself is not entirely too taxing on them although multiple shifts in a short period can be rather exhausting like running a marathon. One limitation though of their shapeshifting is that regardless of what species or form they hold, whether it be humanoid or animal, they will always have the markings on their body that have occurred to their natural body. For this reason they tend to avoid animal forms as there really isn’t much very natural about a dog with a fur pattern that spells out any of the tattoos on their back and chest.
    • Healing Absorption: A great number of their scars are a result of having been forced to absorb and take on the wounds of others. Arcadia possesses the ability to heal others flawlessly of their wounds by simply taking the wounds on as their own and suffering through the long, natural healing from those injuries.

      They are limited by the extent and number of injuries they can heal without it causing their own death. While they could heal someone’s mortal wound for instance, it would ultimately kill them instead. They also cannot undo death no matter how fresh the body is. It is also possible for them to overuse their ability by either healing too grievous a wound that is causing death to come too quickly, or too many wounds to the point that it kills them. Their body will not stop them from reaching the danger point either. Additionally, they can only heal current, living wounds. Old scars are not possible to heal or take on as their own.

      This way of healing becomes even more dangerous for them given that their ability is passive. They cannot stop themselves from healing another if someone comes within prolonged contact with their hair. Therefore if they pass out or are unable to remove themselves from contact with someone it could also be the death of them.
    • Accelerated Cell Regeneration: While Arcadia is incapable of healing themself immediately, they are able to do so over time. Once their wounds and ailments have closed they are able to accelerate the scar’s healing process into flawless skin. The more minor a scar, the faster it will return to normal. For this reason things such as windburn, sunburn, even mild radiation sickness or malnutrition do not affect them the way it does others. They appear and are healthier than even the people they live with. Deeper and more traumatic scars however take much longer to return to normal. The same can be said for tattoos as they are several layers deep and need time to work their way out. Their body is in a constant state of healing these days though as it attempts to recover from a turbulent history of damage.
    • Planet Creation: Their strongest and most dangerous ability is that they are quite literally a DIY home planet starter kit inside a humanoid form. Arcadia can create or heal an entire planet, at the cost of their own life. They know that they are capable of this ability and have an instinctual sense on how to do it but for obvious reasons have never tried. Their ability has been researched heavily and yet still very little is known about it beyond that it is possible. Some have speculated that to do so would cost more than their own life but could destroy a planet in order to remake it. Others have speculated that the healing process would heal all on the planet as well as the land itself, or even create new life or undo mass extinction.

      Needless to say however, any current nation would be more than thrilled at the opportunity to get their hands on this ability and use it to their own gain, whether it be to revitalize Aedolis, expand Edanith’s terraforming to an entirely new level, or provide a paradisal planet for Libra.


    Relationships

    Family: Status unknown.

    Red: Former leader of the Ghouls, now second in command and husband to Boss. He discovered and saved them from another raider gang, providing them with a home and safety they never knew before while asking for nothing but loyalty in return. Arcadia has thrown their all into trying to repay that favor even though it has never been asked of them. They regard him like a crazy, protective, older brother, a role he enjoys and takes seriously. Red is aware of some of what they are capable of and recognizes it as enough to be kept hidden and secret. He is fiercely protective of them for this reason.

    Boss: Leader of the Ghouls and husband of Red. He is aware of some of what Arcadia is capable of and shares with his husband the protective nature towards them. He has always been firm regarding their body and their choice even if it would mean choosing between his crew members because of their choice. They are far more shy around Boss however and prefer to speak as little as possible near him out of respect. They also used to be terrified of his two dogs and has slowly warmed up over time to the massive mutts.

    The Ghouls: Their new found family.

    Ravage: She-devil spawn that would do the universe a favor by having the good grace to drop dead posthaste.

    Iro: First person to make them feel….funny


    History


    By fluke or miracle or the watchful hand of an unknown force, Arcadia managed to wake up and find themselves alone and broken, crash-landed on a planet who knows where after their last memory being of them being sedated before transport to an undisclosed location. This moment of fortune would be the last good thing to happen for them in quite a long time to come, for their rescuers could hardly ever be called that.

    A raider party made short work of eliminating the other crew before scavenging the wreck for parts. Ultimately they found Arcadia half-dead among the wreckage and decided they were pretty enough that if they lived they’d be plenty useful in…many ways.

    When it was found that they were essentially a living battery for healing, their fate was sealed. Too bad for the group of raiders though that they were not smart enough to keep their filthy mouths shut. They crowed to anyone that would listen about their goldmine they had found and were soon easily overrun. The entirety of them were slaughtered for the little prize they possessed.

    The second raider group was no better than the first but didn’t hold them for long. They used Arcadia to their advantage and sold them off to the highest bidder for much needed supplies and resources. Human life means little when palettes full of fresh water are on the line. Plenty would sell their own family members for the like let alone a stranger with the ability to heal. What good are stitched wounds if you’re dead of dehydration after all?

    The third raider group was by far the worst though. Arcadia was kept chained up and hidden. Their only interactions were to be used and abused. They prayed for death even as their body fought to heal from slow-knitting wounds. They didn’t even fight back, just accepted their fate in silence, so numb to the world around them that they did not even realize battle was being waged outside their locked room’s door until it was over.

    Their door opened, light bleeding into the room as a tall figure stood their peering in at them, his silhouette tinged in red. Chains were broken, and their body carried off to yet another base. There Red, their newest captor and rescuer nurtured Arcadia, earning their trust over time. Arcadia was shown their first moments of kindness and gentleness.

    Leadership changed but Red kept his promise to them and kept them well protected. The secret of their healing gift is a well-guarded one among Red and Boss, the leaders of the Ghouls. They are never forced to use their gift against their will and have become a useful, contributing member same as the rest. There is no need that is left unmet, and is nothing they would ever dare ask for. They are happy…however long that may last, unknown.

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    Aedolis Characters / NELS-857b
    « on: March 04, 2022, 06:02:28 pm »
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    Name [CLASSIFIED] NELS-857b [/CLASSIFIED]
    Alias [CLASSIFIED] KD [/CLASSIFIED]
    Age ADULT
    DOB UNKNOWN
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    Occupation Subject TERMINATED
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    Personality
    • Docile
    • Mild-Mannered
    • Uncannily High Aptitude
    • Highly Resourceful
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    Head Researcher: Dr. Drake Ozawa


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    Haviah / Re: Almond Milk, Half n Half [Boglin! 8D]
    « on: February 22, 2022, 03:29:05 pm »
    "Sounds excellent," Micah murmured politely with a bob of her head. She was just preparing to disengage from the conversation and take a step back when he continued to prattle on at her. Patience was a virtue but this werewolf had a very important schedule to keep to and she had already delayed her timer twice, completely eating into any built in buffer for unusually long checkout queue times.

    And then this man had the audacity to volunteer her to help him. "Uh...," her voice trailed off in complete disbelief. "Surely that isn't the best of ideas. With all due respect, I don't even know your name, and for all you know," she shook her head with a humorless smile, dark curls bouncing with the effort, "well I could be the big bad wolf."

    Micah started to back out of the aisle with a small fingerwave to Almond. "I'm glad to have been able to help reunite you with your munchkin and pick out some enrichment toys for her. Buh-bye now."

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 17, 2021, 12:01:26 pm »
    "Stay, it's alright. We can share it later if you're feeling up to it," she offered while pressing a staying hand to his chest to ensure he didn't try to get up on her. Kielen continued to kneel up over him, petting his hair with her other hand as she looked down at his face warmly. "Have I ever told you how much I adore your freckles? They're so pretty and sweet looking."

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 17, 2021, 10:42:44 am »
    Her lips twitched in amusement even as she blinked and considered how he'd look in heels. "I mean you could. Just make sure you have good ankle support if you're following my nine inch example."

    She sobered quickly though as everything was put into stark perspective. Kielen turned to him and pressed a chaste kiss to his cheek. "Thank you for returning the favor, Sweet Thang." She sat up fully on her knees so she towered over him and gave his hair a playful tug so his head tilted back to look up at her. "But don't for a second think I have fallen so low as to forsake my beloved first love, chocolate."

    Kielen giggled, easing her grip on his mane to rub lightly along his scalp, soothing whatever ache she caused there in the process. "Shall I go get it, then? Or you still full from dinner?"

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 16, 2021, 09:49:28 pm »
    Kielen nodded against his shoulder, slumping into him some as if all the heavy thoughts were suddenly pressing down on her in a tangible manner. "...it's been so long since I've felt anything. With him I felt something. I won't say I felt alive but...warm. And now everything is just boring and muted. Sex is unappealing. Chocolate tastes bland. Coffee doesn't even warm me up inside. Wine doesn't give much of a buzz. Drugs do their thing but the crash is harder. Even the job has lost a lot of its thrill. The puzzles that made me so excited to dissect feel disinteresting. I know my worth. I know where I stand in the world. But heavy is the head that wears the crown? It's very lonely here up at the top. Don't say I recommend it."

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 16, 2021, 07:24:35 pm »
    She looked at him a bit startled by his answer before smiling and nodding. "My wise, Knave. I think the problem lies though in that before he was my boyfriend, the old me was very content to chase the next high and party until dawn. But, I am no longer that Kielen. I am, a bit lost. It's like opening a door and then pretending you never experienced or witnessed the contents inside. The harder you try to ignore and forget it, the more you think about it. I don't know if I can find what I had with him with someone else, or if I'm just afraid of being alone again. My brother is settling down, my friends have paired of, all of which I'm very happy for them over but also..."

    Kielen shrugged and sipped her wine. "Chasing my next high is not enough and I don't know if I want to be there to find out what I have become when I've finally lost myself in it. And...I can't even blame that on him, anymore than you can blame your resonance for being who and what he is."

    She laughed mirthlessly. "I told you things are a mess."

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 16, 2021, 06:29:36 pm »
    With his absence Kielen took the time to curl up further on the couch. Her heels were kicked off in favor of tucking her legs beneath her and the moment that Ren returned, Kielen was curling in to press close to his side, her arm going around his waist as she sipped her wine in thought.

    "I don't know," she finally replied, voice soft and a bit pained as if the answer scared her. "Me," she said with more conviction. "Whatever my choice will be, it will be for me."

    Kielen shook her hair out, before giving him a slight pinch along the ribs. "What do you think? Can the Queen find better?"

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 16, 2021, 04:16:22 pm »
    "That's what happens I'm afraid when city lights drown out true starlight. We fail to see our own glow among all the shit. And, on the original topic I know and it's why I approve. Whatever he does is what he does. What I care about is what you do. And if choosing not to love is what it takes for you to feel fulfillment and alright, then that is enough for me. If choosing to love and be at peace with whatever that means for you is enough then I am pleased also. I just want you to be alright at the end of the day, Ren. And whether you are or are not, I'll still be here to help. Making the decision though is the first step and a big one. I'm proud of you," she added with a pointed look of her own. "Really and truly."

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 16, 2021, 02:10:49 pm »
    A closed-lipped wide smile lit up her face at his words. "Then I am happy for you and I will be here with you every step of the way. Just so long as you remember to also love yourself. And to remember that you are a blessing to be loved by let alone to be allowed to love. My perfect treasure."

    She nudged him again affectionately before shifting and grinning wider. "How go your match-making efforts between your Commander and your friend? Jane was it? Any progress updates?"

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 16, 2021, 01:26:59 pm »
    Kielen shrugged and chewed in thought. She had no issue with how he ate although she would not have minded if he had not been hiding his mouth. It brought him comfort so she let him have it. Some habits after all were just not worth breaking. "I can't exactly move on if I don't ever stop being stuck in the same place. And if I spend all my nights on the phone with him then what else can I do to spend my time, y'know? I mean sure my phone is silenced, I'm spending my evening to you. But I'm sure if we looked there'd be a few from him already patiently waiting for my return. Reminders that he's thinking of me and whatnot.

    "But you are mistaken there. I'm not in love with him. I think it's more of a matter that he's....comfortable. I know what to expect with him and he feels safe even though he's the one that burned me so badly. I'm not the settling type. I am not going to be someone's pretty trophy wife, or wife in general I suppose. I'm too headstrong and independent for anyone to want to enjoy keeping distracted and in place.

    "I mean sure I share the same cosmology as you in that we have resonances, we have another half of our soul that matches ours. And if the stars are right we'll find them in the same lifetime. But I don't think they were cruel enough to curse someone with being able to find me. It would be a lot better for them to not have to try and tie me down, because I won't go quietly into the night" she laughed good-naturedly.

    "And you though? Have you decided?"

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 16, 2021, 11:17:23 am »
    Tension flooded her body and Kielen froze at the notion. Thoughts flew through her head in a whirlwind of possibilities before settling on a simple, resounding no. She shook her head, placing down her glass as well and collecting their plates, handing one to him and resting the other in her lap.

    “I mean it could be possible but I don’t think so. He was always sweet. He just….he plunged forward towards marriage faster than I was comfortable with keeping up. What broke us was pack of communication and trust from him. I lost who I was when I was with him. This whole moving domes and learning from others sabbatical is supposed to be about, yes getting the tools for the job for promotions and career tracks but….finding Kielen again. And yes I’m having sex again but it’s kinda lackluster honestly. It’s not like he’s even the best I’ve ever had but I’m bored. Does not bode well for our devotee of the Three C’s. I don’t know. Should be illegal to talk to someone for eight hours on the phone several times a week and texting on the nights when you don’t talk.”

    There was a pause as she stabbed at her food for a moment, then humming in delight at the taste. “The thing of it is, I think he genuinely cares and would have me back. I’m just the harlot stringing him along I guess. The worst part is…it’s not even out of revenge. WHICH! I may add I’d be completely justified in. Bastard almost cost me my career and future! But, I’m not even wanting to string him along. I just really like talking with him. I really liked being with him. It was good but it wasn’t good for me. That’s really the crux of it isn’t it though? Self-destructive tendencies feel good. But they’re not good for us. And we’re not about that life anymore now are we?”

    She nudged him gently with her leg and wiggled her brow at him with a grin.

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 15, 2021, 10:00:34 pm »
    She sighed deeply, drinking more wine as her eyes half closed in pleasure at his touch. "Feels good when you do that. And it's hard. It took things ending and him showing up still caring after everything and me almost dying to realise....that I've been down this path and going back is just toxic choices. And I wouldn't call it dating so much as, mmm what's the most impolite and graphic term I could use to describe it? Help me out what's a salacious way to say screwing men's brains out?"

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 15, 2021, 09:20:33 pm »
    Kielen stretched out contently, accepting her glass eagerly before taking a few hearty sips. "The thing of it is we talk," a pause for another big sip, "daily. I know we shouldn't. I know it isn't healthy. HE knows we shouldn't. But ever since Aurora and the hospital...."

    She waved her hand before continuing. "We were talking about chocolate this week." Kielen grinned wide, her eyes animated with mirth. "I found these specialty ones in provocative shapes-- Ooo we should send the tiniest size to your bibi. Anyway, off track. But I was talking with him and got an email that my order was being sent out and I commented on it so then he looked at the site and he was really excited and wanted to get some of the....other anatomy and...mmm."

    Kielen sighed and rested her head back against the couch. "He's flirty and well I'm flirty too I guess. But, ugh if we're supposed to be moving on then we shouldn't talk all night, every night. But, he's so sweet, and he listens, and he's so good and SO WRONG. We've been down this road and...it did NOT end well. But, there's that but and stars do I keep trying to crawl right on back to the phone for one more call. In conclusion, your Queen is an idiot, Ren."

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 15, 2021, 08:27:41 pm »
    Her hand slid down his cheek to pat gently at his chest in a soothing manner before stepping back to allow him to collect the food. "Oh, Ren," she breathed in dramatized exaggeration. "It never ends!"

    Kielen laughed and followed him into the living area, choosing to pointedly ignore the dining area in favor of sprawling on the suede couch. "Pour us some more wine and come listen to the brownie batter mess I've made of things now. Perhaps you can help even."

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 15, 2021, 09:08:28 am »
    Kielen held him unwavering through the panic. She was no empath and had no way of feeling his exact emotions but she could guess. Reading people was her literal job after all. She could feel the way his hearts drummed harder beneath her fingertips, the way his breath quickened until the nicotine hit his system. He was anxious.

    And then the moment passed and he was speaking again. Her lips pressed into a firm line of displeasure but she did well to hide that from him, pressing a kiss to his shoulder blade instead as if to pour her affection and strength into him. After a moment she squeezed him and stepped back, standing straight and with authority.

    "Turn around and look at me."

    She waited long enough for him to resettled before reaching up and taking his chin between her fingers. "What kind of domme would I be if I did not take care of my sub's aftercare? If you do not trust me, Ren we can find you someone better suited to your needs. But, until then you are mine. You wear my collar and one of my rules is that you contact me when you need me, is it not?"

    Kielen paused, humming softly in thought as she allowed her fingers to trace down his throat to finger the small dangling spike charm that quietly claimed him as hers. "Perhaps we need to rework that rule. You don't seem to recognise when you need help, even after the fact. How do you feel about instead you call or text me after an episode, no matter how small it is or how late or early it is? You're a Pilot. You understand the importance of briefings and damage reports. So brief your Queen.

    "And please, for the love of Gudja, save me from my own insanity. He's not my guy. And any excuse to escape my own weakness is a welcome one."

    She sighed tiredly while offering him a soft smile while cupping his cheek. "I adore talking and working with you Ren. Don't deny me my knave....please?"

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 14, 2021, 11:10:27 pm »
    A soft sound escaped her almost like a wry and amused hum, but tired. "Do any of us, Ren? We're young. We've had our whole lives dictated to us, by our families, by our careers, by our commanding officers. I think it's easy to get lost in it, to feel like you're drowning. Things have just been especially unfair to you. You've lived many of my lifetimes and yet, you're my age? Maybe a little older, maybe a little younger."

    She chuckled against his back, her breath warming the fabric by his shoulder with each puff of laughter. "I never was very good and doing that math. The point is, you're not alone. And we have time to figure it out. We have time to rebuild, to be happy, to define what that means for ourselves outside of all other forces. Not your Bibi telling you what to do, not your Squad Commander, not your dragon, not me. Just you. Seeing the things big or small that make you happy. Like your unwavering devotion to hot sauce on everything," Kielen teased while giving him a warm squeeze. "Or mine to the three C's of life. Me make our own paths. And....while we define them and we determine them, that doesn't mean we have to walk alone. I'm responsibility to you is to support you when you are low Ren. I can't do that if you don't let me."

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 14, 2021, 10:52:34 pm »
    More nods, more quiet consideration. After draining her glass and setting it aside, Kielen moved behind him, arms wrapping around him in a hug from behind, hands splayed over his chest and torso as her cheek pressed into his spine.

    "I'm going to blame you failing to answer one of my questions on your being buzzed and not you intentionally attempting to avoid me Knave. While I am glad you feel better today, are you still feeling useless?"

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    The Rest of Aedolis / Re: Session 9 [Goblin!]
    « on: August 14, 2021, 10:41:08 pm »
    Kielen watched him from her relaxed posture with eyes that failed to waver. She knew exactly how he felt. It was her every winter after all. Knowing days could be like this though never made enduring them any easier, just more self-aware.

    "And now? Can you get warm? Are you feeling useless?" She raised a brow looking up at him pointedly expecting nothing short of the truth. "Are you sober?"

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